Psalm 139: 13-16
For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.
The last week was difficult to say the least but the Lord is soo faithful. Three days in the past week I had contractions that only stopped for a few hours in that time period. Doctors had attempted an amniocentesis the week prior but were unsuccessful because I began contracting during the procedure and they were unable to get the needle through the wall of the uterus. Basically the needle would push the wall all the way to the bottom and never go through. As many of you may know, a side effect of amniocentesis is miscarriage when it is attempted before 20wks. It was in these days of contracting that I did not feel the baby move. I was also receiving messages from someone I have known for quite a while that they were praying the baby would die, and that I was selfish to want to bring this child into the world. Finally because the contractions had not let up I called the on-call doctor, and she suggested that it was probable that I was miscarrying . She said it was too early for me to be seen in labor and delivery, and if I saw blood i needed to go to the ER. Otherwise I could setup an appointment Monday with specialists I am working with through this pregnancy.
So how was He faithful in this time? He has surrounded me with so much encouragement. On Sunday I went to a man named David who has been one of the major spiritual influences in my life and he and one other prayed for the baby. Then my pastor, Marc, allowed me to come in front of the church and share my story, and he prayed over me. After that we had a time of fellowship and so many surrounded me to encourage and pray for me. One man, not knowing of the messages I had received, began praying that God would come against anything evil spoken over this child, and I was completely broken by God's love to send him my way with that prayer. He just used one of His children to affirm to me in such a time of need that He has a deep and unshakable love for each child.
The blessing did not stop there, late Sunday night my sweet little one began to move inside of me and tears of joy just streamed down my face! He is so faithful! The next morning my sister, and best friend, who is expecting my precious niece, Kayleigh, had an appointment and she was kind enough to let me come along with her and have the doctors check for a heartbeat just to make sure everything was okay. She would not have had it any other way, she is really an amazing woman. That morning we heard Kayleigh and my baby's heartbeats, both strong in the 150s! Then a church member that has already gone above and beyond to increase awareness of my baby's situation and the need for prayer, blessed me once again. Having considered the pain of not knowing whether your child is alive inside of you, this person went and bought me a pink stethoscope so that as I progress, in those times of concern, I will now be able to stop and listen and have peace.
God is so faithful. In such a time of adversity He overwhelms me with peace, and surrounds me with His love by speaking to me through His children. I am so grateful for everyone's prayers and obedience to His calling, and I pray for blessings over all of you. My sister and I will be headed to an ultrasound appointment tomorrow, we hope to find out the sex and the doctors will be trying to gauge the extent of heart defects that the baby has. Please continue to pray, each prayer is such a treasure to me. Be blessed!
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