Trisomy 18 Has Nothing on God

Oh my God you have overwhelmed me! Though i have been found unfaithful, destitute in my weakness, and so undeserving, still You love me, You allow Your mercy and grace to abound, You remain faithful! You have filled me with a DIVINE joy and pleasure unmatched by anything this world has to offer! I am swept away by a raging river of Your love!

Over the past few weeks we have learned that my baby is a boy which makes him a Zane Owen! Zane means God's gracious gift, and Owen means young warrior! The doctors were seeing VSD (a hole in the heart), possible pericardial fluid (abnormal fluid around the heart), and were concerned about more severe defects such as transposition. Today I was seen at Duke Hospital to receive a fetal echocardiogram for a diagnosis of Zane's heart condition(s).

I am by no means a sonographer or a cardiologist. However, my experience in sitting through several ultrasounds has moderately trained my eyes to what the fetal heart should look like. Several weeks ago as they looked at Zane's heart, before anyone said a word I could tell something was wrong. I did not know what it was, but I could tell it did not look the way it should, and that is when I was informed of the VSD and suspicion for further defects. Today as Zane came up on the monitor I looked at his little heart for so long, and to me it looked completely normal, a drastic change from the previous ultrasound. However, I had to wait for the doctors to tell me what they were seeing. I assumed I was probably not seeing what I thought I was and continued to brace myself for the worst.

After over an hour of looking and a few minutes of measuring the doctor gave me the best news of my pregnancy to date! Zane's heart is completely normal! That is nothing less than a miracle straight from Zane's Daddy and mine that is smiling down on us from heaven. I really believe the Lord healed and corrected sweet Zane's heart over the past few weeks. The only problem that was seen was that the heart was measuring a little small for my gestation, but the heart was perfectly proportional and looks as though it will continue to grow correctly. Zane, like every other baby, will just need as much time as possible to develop before I am holding him in my arms. I am overwhelmed by God's love through this miracle, He is so so good to us!